Dear Husband...

Dear Husband,
I know in life, as much as we expected things to never change; it will somehow,
I am the type of person who holds on to great memories in life,
Even I know nothing will last forever, and somehow, great things are never meant to stay long in our life,
For some good reason, it fades faster than we can ever imagine.

But dear Husband,
Allow me to hold on to this one definate thing;
Allow me to remember you as a Facilitator boy with a blue cap, wearing blue faded baggy jeans and Kickers boot,
Who used to make me a great cup of coffee, used to wait for me for lunch when I used to be crazily busy assisting Juliah at Camp, used to give me the love cards on every 30th of every month celebrating our monthly anniversary,
And a boy who has transformed to be a father when you silently cried holding our newly born baby in your arms :) ..my~! it still bring me tears remembering how much you were touched by our little Angel then..

Please..
Regardless our life and relationship has changed in so many ways,
Please do allow me to hold on to those sweet memories with you,
The memories when life used to be so simple and easy for both of us.

I love you and I never regret that,
-wife
nho

Let Them Be~

The life I knew was a lot simpler than what I see now.
My~! It is totally crazy and I just pray for I am strong enough to fit in.
I have tried so hard to fly yet they never let me to. What is wrong with 'to support and success together'? It is much easier than trying so hard to invent so many ways to kick people out and punch them on their stomach.
Afterall, I am glad that I firmly stand and clean up my own mess instead loudly talk; like them. Let them be, life's over for them. That is why they keep to put an end toward others.

I AM ALL GOOD! -nho

Father's Day; dedication for him

This goes to a man who cried when he first held our newborn baby. The one who keep going when the whole world denying. The man who keep the spirit high when we loses one. The man who keep loving his wife and supporting her through thick and thin. This one goes out to you sweetheart for showing me how much love a father can give to his children and for keeping love alive for me; who never had such an experience from a father :) we love you so much Dada!! -nho



Proud father and his kids



Self-made Father's Day Card for him

  



Favorite Fairy Tale - Stardust

My! Even I don't believe in a fairy tale, but what can I say about this movie? Eventhough I have watched it for like 6^th times on HBO and Star Movie channel, I still find this movie amazing. I love the story line; I love the cinematography, the art, costume design and off course the line of talented actors! And most of all, I love Charlie Cox and Claire Danes; the main casts of this movie. I wish for Astro to play this movie again on the movie channels and I am totally thrilled to watch it over and over again, even I almost put my husband on puke! -nho

 

Layout Changed!

I have finally decided to change the layout of my blog after looking so gloomy and depressed! Will change the format and the story line very soon too! Right now, I am quite busy with my to-do-list at the office and somehow I am baffle for it mysteriously become endless when I already ticked one! Nevertheless, I truly fell in love with the new design J , makes me happy though~! -nho

The image has nothing to do with the above story. But I love the bicycle tyres! :)

The Team That I Missed To Work With

In 2004, after finished my diploma, I have been given a chance of one good friend of mine to joint this one Event and Training Company which located in Lebuh Ampang. It was my first serious job and I was shocked at first to see how crazy the job was until the ‘sleep’ word has totally disappear from my life dictionary.

The good thing was I love the team mates so much. It was ok for the long hours working (there was a time where I had to stay back until 2am at the office) as long as I can stay with the rest of them. Those people who I hard to forget were Radhia, Mr. Peeps(off course he was one of us!) , and other crazy bunch of people like Wawa, Archert, Kak Ila, Aizar, Chintok, Fasha, Jamal, Hisham, Eddy, Meque and many more of them who used to stay up late with me especially while we were at the camp. But we had so much fun being a bunch of crazy owl though!

Also not forgotten those faci in Sabah who was helping me so much while I was in my first Cyberkids at Beringgis, Papar! Gosh~! Miss you guys a lot and no one can take Beringgis out of my mind even when I am 90 years old full of wrinkles!

Among the happiest moment in my life was when my birthday was surprisingly celebrated at Cinta Sayang Golf and Country Resort, Sungai Petani, by the entire team member, the bosses, the client and also Mr Peeps who knows about their mischievous plan and managed to keep it secret from me for the entire evening. Even I sprinkled my leg that evening but the night was amazing and thinking about it still manage to put a smile upon my face J - nho

The Other Woman

I should take a good caution on you when he started to tell me about how close you were back at the office (Instead I just give great ignorance for trusting him so much). And when it happen, I should not hear and believe your justifications after you have created such a mess in my life (and created it for twice). I was just being too naïve to understand the true colors of some people; moreover the one like you. You are just too much drama, yes you are! Even so, I never doubt you as a good actress and bravo for applying what you have learned in your favorite past time; being a stage actress, into this real world. Regardless all, to my surprise I never want to blame you on what had happen or to hate you. Instead, I think you are just a weak woman who seeks attention and for that you were taken as an easy target for a man who trying to take his revenge on me.  

Positive thought in me always tell me that I should be grateful for the mess which you has caused. I should be thankful for it open up my eyes and his eyes to know what type of woman he is married to. He finally chose me instead you. He knows me better now and left you. But dear woman, seriously, wake up! This world is cruel and it is not just about you. Stop being self-centered and selfish! This world is about everyone and everything around you too! I think you have to understand that what ever you do in life, it DO have an effect toward others! I just pray for someday somehow, you will realize what kind of mess you have created and how bad it has affected me in so many ways. I pray for you to become a good wife to your husband instead of telling lies  about how unhappy your are with your marriage to someone else's husband. My! Guess your split personality has become a disease and it caused me migrain. For God sake! One thing that you might not understand that some guys are just plain shallow when it comes to conflict and they turn to the easiest solution and make used of you.

Dear you, you have been given a brain to think and start to think as a lady even I doubt if you are one. Hope one day you will find your virtue! Aren't you getting tired when the list of  people who hated you become longer and longer day after day? Regardless constantly put a blame on others, perhaps you might need to turn the mirror to yourself and examine on what went wrong.

Bottom line, I never wanted hate you for I truly do not know how to handle hatred. It is just tough! -nho

The Stranger Who I Ignored

Life is not just about you, me and everyone close to us. To our surprise, it extends to the edge of the world.  Well, not literally to the end of the world but what I am trying to say is that sometimes we never know who might knock on our door and bringing up surprise to our life.

Once, there was a stranger who I hardly known. Even we were in the same building, studying in the same college and I oftenly saw him standing in front of the glass door of a room which famously called as’ Aquarium’, but I was ignoring  him for he was not in my list of interest. During class break, I used to sit at the café while waiting for another class and for another day to pass by. Even so, I was still saw him sitting at the café with bunch of his friend.  I never spoke to him nor noticed him.

April 2004 - I was busy assisting my manager at the office in Lebuh Ampang, for our next Cyberfolks Camp at Impiana Cherating when one familiar faces came in and sat quietly at the office sofa. I knew him! It was the same guy who I used to saw standing in front of the glass door of ‘aquarium’. It is interesting to finally met him here but ahh~! I was just too busy to say hi or even smile at him. From my view, he was just another stranger who might be attending for an interview and might be disappear in another half an hour and I might not be seeing him again for another next 10 years, but who cares?. Half an hour later, the manager brought that guy to me and introduced him as Pipi. I say ‘What? Fifi?!What a strange and funny name you have there!’. That was my first expression when were being introduced by our manager and I was mischievously trying so hard to control myself from laughing! And that guy just smiled and never say a word towards my 'not so pleasant' expression to his funny name!

20-24 April 2004 , Impiana, Cherating- We were asked by our speaker, Shahnaz to find someone as our buddy. Since all the girls have their own partner, so it left me with no one. I had no choice but to grab ‘Fifi’; who at that time I finally realized what his real name was, as my buddy even though he was trying to get Achert as his buddy. Since then, we were very much attached. He was a creative young man back then who came up with great ideas and one of those is ‘Petikan Kata’ and we get along very well while I was helping him with his new experience and our hectic and crazy life at the camp. A week after, when we get back to the office, he thanked me for being so helpful and so supporting while becoming his buddy. And since that, we were just inseparable. 

8 June 2011 – Here I am telling you on how a stranger who used to stand at the aquarium glass room has finally became my great buddy at work and apparently now is my husband for 5 years. It has been an amazing journey for how we share our life experience from the first moment we met until we have adorable kids now.

Dear Mr. Pipi, I was blessed for being your wife sayang! I love you my man!-much love <3 -nho

That was us on our 1st year marriage.

The Gossips

I realize now when I grow up that life can be so cruel. Unless college, gossips spread faster in the office. Don’t ask me why for I don’t have any valid answer for that. My opinion? Some people are just bored with their work routine, decided to sit together, talk over things and over others. My rule of thumb is simple. I don’t gossips because my late mom used to advise me to do not mind other business as much as we don’t want others to mind ours. But for me, in this life, the rule is differently applied; the more we hate to mind over others, the more they love to mind ours!

I guess it must be my mom’s blood which I carried for I hate to death when people start a conversation with me with the sentence sounds like this..” nak tau tak, i heard that….” …” kenapa dia tu …”…” You know that she is telling this and that…” my! Please, I just feel like screaming. And worst, do not tell me about your family and in-laws marriage crisis. Telling me the long journal story of your uncles, your aunties, your in-laws, your 2nd in-laws, 3rd and 4th; I mean the whole family tree. Please la! I am not interested to know. 

I do believe that there are so many things to do in life other than sit together and talk over others. Please. Read books or start a blog for god sake and stop giving our precious ‘pahala’ to others by gossiping about them! Maybe some people enjoy talking so much until they don’t realize what they talk is killing them back in silence -nho

The Other Hobbies

I love reading books. Novels to be precised.  So far, I read those from Danielle Steel (thank you Maksu sbb bg Nor angkut buku-buku marvelous tu bawak balik rumah). Those books are actually belonging to my aunty, but somehow, I managed to hijack the books and brought it to my house and spend hours reading those great books. Some books, I even read it for 4 times and still cry over the sad story in it.

I love watching live bands performance so much! I think live band (I mean the Indie band which used to play at gigs) are super cool!  This was my hobby since I was a school girl. I know I was under age and not supposed to go to any clubs to watch band performances but during my school time, there was always a place to hang out to watch band performances with my bunch of friends. I remember I used to go to gig at Ampang Park. There was one place next to it used to organize the gig which usually started at 2pm and ends at 8pm. For me, I normally will be back at 6pm. That was it! 6pm was my curfew time. Mom decided that I can go and watch the gig but somehow if I failed to reach home latest by 7p.m, God knows what she will do to me the next day. That is why I love my mom so much. She was super cool! Gosh~! I miss her! (She has departed on 2 May 2009 – on my birthday month). - nho

The Duo

Last night when I got home after work, I was so delighted looking at my boy, Saif who is one year old now, playing hide and seek with her 5 years old sister Tasha.  During the day, Tasha will stay at her school, Smart Soleh Taman Midah while Saif will spend his whole day staying with her great grandmother (yes, my grandmother) at Taman Mulia Bandar Tun Razak.  Daily, the Pipis family (husband, me and the kids) will gather at around 6p.m and during that time I will see the sparkle in Saif’s eyes for finally reunited with his Dada, Mummy and importantly his favorite family member, Kakak.  For that excitement, he, who just started walking on his 1^st birthday in middle of May, will wander around the house and laughing all the way. But yesterday, while Dada was praying,  and I was reading newspaper, Saif and Tasha were happily running around and Saif was frantically laughing when suddenly Tasha screamed: ‘Adik! cepat lari!!Kita bakor!Kita bakor!!’ (mengikut kata2 Usop Wilcha from Hantu Kak Limah Balik Rumah) and Saif was constantly doing the hand action of Usop Wilcha while me?I was stunned and just could not stop laughing.

That was my duo, the favorite duo! -nho

The Start Up

It has been a long time since I wanted to start up my own blog.  But, the intention delayed for there are lists of things which I have to put on top as priority.  In high school, I enjoy writing. I write stuff like short stories or ‘cerpen’ and poem. Most of the stories I wrote were about relationship among family, friends and lovers (even my late Mom does not know about this).  Often I asked for my friends to read the stories and write some reviews. Mainly of the comments were encouraging and some criticizing (but in a good way I supposed).

My~! It has been 11 years now since I left school and the passion to write is still there, but it I was not smart enough to divide my time proportionately for this one interest (yes, I have many other interests which some people find it boring).  Back to this writing stuff, sometimes I write poems to my husband, which he enjoy so much of receiving one! And I was just glad he did!

The truth, I did not realize that I still love to write even after 11 years leaving high school until when there was a time when I was pursuing my degree back then in MMU that made me realize that telling stories in a written form is always being my interest. I wrote 60 pages for 10 case studies in my analysis for Business Ethics subject. And my lecturer, Mr Omar Salahuddin (an English man with a super duper great sense or humor) was really thrilled by reading all those ‘stories’ (of course the analysis was based on facts and research!) Thanks Mr Omar! u really made my day that time with the high marks you gave.

I doubt if anybody reads my writing since it is just some normal pieces from a lady who almost hit her 30's and trying to share some bits of her life experiences. But if there any, I really do appreciate it.

Ok enough for now, I write again in some other time. Thanks for dropping by! - nho