Bittersweet 2011

Leaving you and leaving us,

Leaving it all and we say goodbye,

To the year that pour colors,

Yet still create some space for us to fly.

How devastating, how wonderful,

All that are memories made and it was beautiful.

How things crashed, and rebuild,

Yet I was blessed for all His forgiveness and will.

How the sad news blown and the good ones pour in,

And I am still thankful that he is still here believin’.

Bittersweet year that was.

Random Awesome

It all began

At the show one weekend

I was a friend of your cousin said

“hey how u’ve been”

And with your checkered shirt on

And my Reebok shoes on

Let’s watch something random

Turned in to something awesome

And I smile I love no, no,no

I laugh happier somehow

No I don’t know what is up with me

I laugh too much recently

No, they don’t know much about us

When we’re exchange glances

We’ll figure out one day

What happened on your 24^th birthday

It all begin wit a simple confession

You had an urge to kiss me and

I was on the verge to miss you

And it happen, No

We didn’t understand, No

I won’t even budge

Before we didn’t hang out much

So save me in your playlist

So, you won’t forget this

When things don’t quite go your way

You’ll stil have me on replay

With your checkered shirt on

And my Reebok shoes on

Let’s watch something random

Turned into something awesome

And I smile I love, no,no,no

I laugh happier somehow

No I don’t know what is up me with me

I laugh too much recently

No, they don’t know much about us

When we’re exchanging glances

We’ll figure our one day

What happened on your 24^th birthday.. -Yuna

Our favorite tune; sitting in the car listening to it brought us a wide smile; to imagine our own version of its video clip :) -  to be loved and be blessed,enrich the moment while it lasts - nho

My Plead

Picture by Peepsphoto

Sorry if I hurt u
Sorry if my choice of words pissed u
Sorry if my tongue slit when try to persuade u

My words might carve
My words get tangled
Anyhow I cant help but being so clumsy and raffled

And for that I pleaded sorry for sometimes wounded u - nho

Silence

I rather be silence;

Other than deal with your constant resistance.

I rather be silence;

When I neither differ nor concur.

I rather be silence;

When your denial is nowhere to handle.

I rather be silence;

Shut my eyes to breathe and let the wound be heal.

I rather be silence;

To let u play with your unreal drama screenplay.

I rather be silence
And let you drawn with the bustle. 

Please, just let me be in silence .. - nho

Unnecessary Network

We understand your seniority. We understand your experience. But be such an annoying 'hanging on' our privacy partition at the place where we earn our income and constantly talking about others' deficiancy is certainly not the perfect picture of how I wanted to deal with my career daily.

Even after all the ‘sorry we are not interested’ gestures; it still doesn’t seemed to cross on your mind that we are not interested? I supposed that you don’t need us to held up our palm to your face and says; ‘talk to the hand, woman and back-off....’ where I am sure that it will not be appropriate at all but tell me what other choices left for the one who can’t read between the lines?

If you can’t handle your envy upon hearing others’ successful stories of family and career,  why the hell are you stood and listen as though you care but then end up telling the whole building about the crap you felt about that person. You end up telling A, that you hate what B told and telling C about what A said over B’s story. And when D comes  up, you told D that C and A are making up stories and jealous over B’s story, and there the stories go and all the tales is getting twisted and tangled. duuhh..!

I just don’t understand..

Farewell to Our Father of Technology Innovation; Steve Jobs

The world bit their farewell to the Father and Pioneer of Technology Innovation and Invention as Steve Jobs or Steven Paul Jobs has finally laid to rest and leaving the world with his technology legacy after a tough battle for 7 years with Pancreatic Cancer. He was truly an inventor and one creative visionary man that could discover beyond human expectations. Who knows that one crazy experiment in the garage could end up bringing the whole new era to the world’s population traversing continents?

His inventions are endless, from ‘Mouse’, Graphical User Interface, Apple II, Macintosh, iPod, iPhone to iPad, the world can’t help but to owe this man from his tremendous contribution that changed the way we lead our daily life.

We will definitely miss the figure of man wearing black turtle neck shirt with blue jeans and sport shoes presenting a new product on the spacious stage.

Steve Jobs; your intelligence will dearly be missed. Thank You!



                              

Salam Aidilfitri

The Ramadhan is almost says its farewell. I thank Allah for the opportunity of meeting Ramadhan this year and pray for I will have the chance to meet them again in the next coming years.

As Aidilfitri is around the corner and before I am off for a long Raya leave, I would like to take this opportunity to apologize to those who I might harm while I am taking the humble steps on my life path. The road is lengthy and even troublesome at some points, and as a human being, I can’t afford but making mistakes and sincerely plead apologizes for my deficiency.

Also, this Raya will be the third year I will be celebrating it without the other part of my soul, my beloved mother, who had left me to meet The Almighty in May 2009. Even after 3 years, I still feel her presence at home and she had been missed dearly. She is the beloved mother and has successfully played a role as a father too for the past 26 years (my age when she departed). Definitely, this year, I will bring along the new addition to the family, Saif Najiy for his first time to visit his late grandmother’s graveyard, together with his sister, Tasha.

Dear lovelies, all I pray is for The Almighty to give His blessings to us in this holy month of Ramadhan and coming Syawal and please drive safely on your way back to your hometown! Selamat Hari Raya Everyone! -nho

Monday oh Monday!

Monday oh Monday

What a gloomy day

I had a great weekend yet u turn them away.

Monday oh Monday

How I wish it could have end

Sooner and faster so I don’t have to pretend.

Monday oh Monday

This is pretty much of me on Monday

Can I take my Medical Leave?

As to avoid you is the first on my list.

Monday oh Monday

Sigh! Guess I have no choice

Still have to work for it is my only income source!

Oh Monday! - nho

Increment for Plantation Workers

Ok. This is definitely neither about my personal nor relationship stories.

I overheard the conversations among the Directors in my office on the salary increment for the Plantation workers (even read about it from MAPA circular). But the sad thing about it is, it only applicable to those who work at the estates, not to those who based at the HEADQUARTERS. Sadly said, the increment does not relevant to me and the rest of my colleague (not mentioning the Directors including my boss for they have their own profit sharing scheme). Kind of unfair for me as indirectly, we also very much involve in making profit to the company by the effective administration (chewah!statement syok sendiri).

Nevertheless, rezeki is all from Him and as the servant we sometimes were not being offered by so many choices in life other than accepting the fact that has been planned for us. Afterall, I am blessed to have a job and a career that does not take up so much of my personal life. J -nho

Sepang Gold Coast (Sepang Golden Palm Tree Resort)

It has been a countless trip to that magnificent resort (I supposed since we signed for the Iconic membership last January 2011), but I still find it exciting and soothing!

We had a really great time living ‘above the water chalet’ with the top class facilities. The house (we were living in the chalet with 2 big master bedrooms and a great hall-since my grandmother and aunty were with us) was cozy and every inch of the room never failed to lighten my day (as well as my husband’s, Saif’s and Tasha’s!) How do I explain more,  for Sepang Gold Coast is always been thrilled and enlighten me till I lost my words to describe them.

Wrapping up, the husband and I are truly had a great time together, having coffee, read books and magazine at the balcony above sea water of Malacca Strait, covered by the clear sky and thousands of star while enjoying the fresh air and the windy night. And the quality time we both had, it truly worth every penny paid!

Long and Winding Road

Time passes with out us hearing it

The news spread like no one shit

And how do I take this hit?

Losing you is painful and I started to lose a bit

You tell me you had to make a move

To the one you claim cheering your day and give you groove

Oh how do take this hue

The days without you is so cold blue

It is a long road

It is a stretch path

We promised to made it through

Yet when it came and your promises blew

It is a long road

Yet you leave me by the winding side

Alone, hugging and holding them tight

Waiting and wishing one day, you will come and fetch us up right.  -nho

The Shinning Star

This goes up to all of you out there and also to my late mother, Juliah Mohd Yaman. Thank you for being such an inspiration, Mak. You will always be the reason for who I am today. I Miss You.
And to all of you, may we lived our life fairly and remember,  no matter how people trying their hard to pull and cast us away, don't ever stop believing and spreading our wings :) May His blessing always be with us..

When the world is denying;

Never be crying;
Look up and always have faith;
For you have the greatest life strength.

When people around stab you;
Never let them through;
Hold up your shining amour;
For you are a woman with the great honor.

When people around push you away;

Just cast them away;

For they never care;
And for we are the bright shinning star and it is up there where we are. -nho

Football Game and a Cup of Hot Steaming White Coffee



Life has been great for the past few months for me. Well, crap happens but the great thing is, I welcome them, treat them well, let them go and learn to forget and forgive things. After all, life is too short to mourn on what others did.

Husband and I have planned for so many great things ahead regardless our crazy work schedule. Among of those is watching a football match together after putting the kids off to bed. Even we are not watching it at the stadium like we did when we were as a couple 7 years ago, but as the busy working parents, what matters is the precious and quality time for both of us after the hectic daily routine of taking care of our career and the family.

For the past 6 years, it is our routine to have a cup of hot steamy coffee before we were off to bed just to make sure that we have a little precious time to sit together and have a little chat over things happen for the day.

Well dear wives, I am not saying that I am good enough to give a little advice on marriage life but one thing for sure; our husbands need our attentions as much as the kids and we do. So, feel free some times to skip from work and our daily busy role as a mom and go out for a date or lunch together and have a little chat about things and feeling that we used to have before we were as a man and a wife J It truly helps!! -nho



Us, 7 years ago :)



I am The Busy Bee (The Cute Ones)

Board papers; almost 30 of them.Daily correspondence (which has been delayed from my reply since a week ago).Insurances (many of them!) and not forgetting tonnes of Fertilizer order that pull  me of from my blogging and off course; creating a love poetry for that Mr.!

 My~! the workload and to do list are just get crazy over days, however, I am so blessed that I manage to pull myself together regardless a stack of papers on my 'in' tray. (Still trying my best to sneak between these documents and update my pretty blog though!)

Afterall I just can't help but to thank the husband for delivering my Subway sandwich and the marvellous creamy Cappucino Ice Blended from Coffee Bean straight to me office! Love u baybeh and I always do! -nho

7 Discipline Mistakes All Moms Make - Parenting for Dummies

When it comes to dealing with bad behavior, everyone screws up. We'll help you do it right.

By Katy Rank Lev

1. We're too negative.

"Don't hit your sister!" "Stop pulling the dog's tail!" The number of things you tell your toddler or preschooler not to do is endless.

THE FIX Ask for the behavior you want to see. Nobody wants to raise a child who doesn't understand limits, but "parents say 'no' so frequently that kids become deaf to it -- and the word loses its power," Dr. Borba explains. Moreover, "we often tell kids not to do something without letting them know what they should be doing," notes Linda Sonna, Ph.D., author of The Everything Toddler Book. So save the naysaying for truly dangerous situations (think: fork in the electrical socket or your child eating the spider plant), and focus on telling kids how you would like them to behave. For example, instead of, "No standing in the bathtub!" try, "We sit down in the bathtub because it's slippery." Later, when you notice your kid splashing away in a seated position, offer some praise ("I like how you're sitting!") to reinforce her good behavior.

2. We expect too much from our kids.

You're sitting in church when your toddler shouts. As soon as you shush him, he does it again. Mortifying! Why doesn't he listen?

THE FIX Play teacher. Very young children still haven't developed impulse control or learned the social graces required in public places like stores and restaurants. "Parents assume kids know more than they do," Dr. Sonna says.

When your child breaks a norm, remind yourself that he isn't trying to be a pain -- he just doesn't know how to act in the situation, so snapping isn't effective (or fair). Focus on showing your child how you want him to behave, softly saying things like, "I'm being quiet because I'm in church, but if I need something from Dad I lean in close to whisper." Also point out what others are doing ("Look how Charlie is coloring while he waits for his meal to arrive"). Kids are born mimics, so modeling or drawing attention to something we want them to do goes a long way.

"It takes time and repetition for kids to learn to handle themselves," Dr. Sonna says, which means you should expect to give your kid a lot of reminders -- and remove him when he doesn't get the message. Over time, he'll learn how to act.

3. We model behavior we don't want to see.

When you drop something, you yell. A man cuts you off and you call him a rude name. But then you get mad if your kid reacts the same way when things don't go her way.

THE FIX Apologize and take a do-over. There's a boomerang effect to behavior: If we yell, our kids probably will too, says Devra Renner, coauthor of Mommy Guilt. Yes, it's hard to be on perfect behavior around the clock, so apologize when you do slip up. "Emotions are powerful and difficult to control, even for grown-ups," Renner notes, but saying "sorry" demonstrates that we're accountable for our actions nonetheless.

It also creates the chance to talk about why you reacted the way you did and offers appropriate ways to respond when you're feeling frustrated. That's what Deena Blumenfeld, of Pittsburgh, did when her son Owen, 5, protested so much about getting dressed that she snapped, "Just shut up and get dressed!" Realizing this was not how she'd want her son to react in a similar situation, she knelt down, apologized, then talked about how important it is to be on time for school. It worked: Owen got ready for school calmly after that.

4. We intervene when our kids simply annoy us.

You hear your children chasing each other around the house and immediately shout.

THE FIX Ignore selectively. Often, parents feel the need to step in every time kids do something, well, kid-like. But always being the bad guy is exhausting, Dr. Borba notes. Keep in mind that children sometimes do things that are irksome because they're exploring new skills. (So your toddler could be dumping juice into his cereal because he's learning about liquids.) Other times, they're seeking attention. When it comes to reacting, Dr. Borba's rule of thumb is: When safety isn't an issue, try watchful waiting. If your 6-year-old is playing his recorder with his nose, try not to shout. See what happens if you just continue with what you're doing as if nothing is happening. Most likely, if you don't respond, he will eventually stop -- and you'll feel calmer, having avoided a shouting match.

5. We're all talk and no action.

"Turn off the TV... I'm serious this time... Really!" Your kids continue bad behavior when warnings are vague for the same reason you run yellow lights -- there aren't consequences.
THE FIX Set limits and follow through. Nagging, second chances, and negotiation all convey that cooperation is optional, says Robert MacKenzie, Ph.D., author of Setting Limits With Your Strong-Willed Child. To teach kids to follow rules, make expectations clear, then take action when they're broken. If you want your kid to, say, get off the couch and do homework, start with respectful directives ("Please turn off the TV now and do your work"). If she follows through, thank her. If not, give a consequence: "I'm turning off the TV now. Until your work is finished, your TV privileges are suspended." 

6. We use time-out ineffectively.

When you send your 3-year-old to his room after he hits his brother, he starts banging his head on the floor in rage.

THE FIX Consider a time-in. A time-out is meant to be a chance for a child to calm down, not a punishment. Some kids respond well to the suggestion that they go to a quiet room until they're chill. But others view it as a rejection, and it riles them up. Plus, it doesn't teach kids how you want them to behave. As an alternative, Dr. Sonna suggests taking a "time-in," where you sit quietly with your kid. If he's very upset, hold him to get him settled down, Dr. Sonna adds. Once he's relaxed, calmly explain why the behavior wasn't okay. Too angry to comfort him? Put yourself in time-out; once you've relaxed, discuss what you would like your child to do differently. You might start by saying: "What can you do instead of hitting when Milo grabs your train?" 
7. We assume what works for one kid will work for another.

The best way to deal with your son's whining is to get down at eye level and explain how his actions need to change. But your daughter is more aggressive and refuses to listen.

THE FIX Develop a diverse toolbox. It's easy to blame your kid when a discipline technique fails. But "you may have to go about getting the behavior you want in different ways with each kid," notes Avivia Pflock, coauthor of Mommy Guilt. While one might respond to a verbal reminder about what is acceptable, the other might need a consequence when she acts up -- like having her Wii unplugged. Being firm with one child and touchy-feely with another isn't being inconsistent; it's tuning in to different needs and learning styles, Pflock assures. "The punishment should fit the crime -- and the kid." - source Yahoo.com

It's 11th of July again~! :)

Taking my time off from my endless to-do list at the office and blogging is peaceful. Last Monday, 11^th July was the husband’s birthday. Decided to take a day leave and spend a blissful Monday with only two of us without the kids J

We shared life for 7 years and it always been an amazing emotions journey to spend my life with him. I always proud and never fail to be glad to wake up every morning seeing his face and smelling his presence next to me. Off course, we are not always being peaceful. It’s marriage; off course there are turbulences, hurdles, happiness, joy and all sorts of emotions. What I am trying to say is WE MADE IT THROUGH! We face it together and take it as a challenge for us to grow stronger and learn to appreciate each other more. Well, eventually we move on with our life together with our adorable kids off course!

Once, there was one psycho who tried so hard to ruin what we have build, but, I am just glad that we made it through.

And we are very much happier than ever.

My~! The journey is a stretch path! And there are lots about to come.

I just pray that we will make it through.

Babe, hope you will enjoy tonight’s football match between Arsenal and Malaysia! It’s my birthday present to you honey!  

p/s: babe, sembahyang jemaah dgn u and anak-anak is the best thing we ever did together everyday.

Dear Husband...

Dear Husband,
I know in life, as much as we expected things to never change; it will somehow,
I am the type of person who holds on to great memories in life,
Even I know nothing will last forever, and somehow, great things are never meant to stay long in our life,
For some good reason, it fades faster than we can ever imagine.

But dear Husband,
Allow me to hold on to this one definate thing;
Allow me to remember you as a Facilitator boy with a blue cap, wearing blue faded baggy jeans and Kickers boot,
Who used to make me a great cup of coffee, used to wait for me for lunch when I used to be crazily busy assisting Juliah at Camp, used to give me the love cards on every 30th of every month celebrating our monthly anniversary,
And a boy who has transformed to be a father when you silently cried holding our newly born baby in your arms :) ..my~! it still bring me tears remembering how much you were touched by our little Angel then..

Please..
Regardless our life and relationship has changed in so many ways,
Please do allow me to hold on to those sweet memories with you,
The memories when life used to be so simple and easy for both of us.

I love you and I never regret that,
-wife
nho

Let Them Be~

The life I knew was a lot simpler than what I see now.
My~! It is totally crazy and I just pray for I am strong enough to fit in.
I have tried so hard to fly yet they never let me to. What is wrong with 'to support and success together'? It is much easier than trying so hard to invent so many ways to kick people out and punch them on their stomach.
Afterall, I am glad that I firmly stand and clean up my own mess instead loudly talk; like them. Let them be, life's over for them. That is why they keep to put an end toward others.

I AM ALL GOOD! -nho

Father's Day; dedication for him

This goes to a man who cried when he first held our newborn baby. The one who keep going when the whole world denying. The man who keep the spirit high when we loses one. The man who keep loving his wife and supporting her through thick and thin. This one goes out to you sweetheart for showing me how much love a father can give to his children and for keeping love alive for me; who never had such an experience from a father :) we love you so much Dada!! -nho



Proud father and his kids



Self-made Father's Day Card for him

  



Favorite Fairy Tale - Stardust

My! Even I don't believe in a fairy tale, but what can I say about this movie? Eventhough I have watched it for like 6^th times on HBO and Star Movie channel, I still find this movie amazing. I love the story line; I love the cinematography, the art, costume design and off course the line of talented actors! And most of all, I love Charlie Cox and Claire Danes; the main casts of this movie. I wish for Astro to play this movie again on the movie channels and I am totally thrilled to watch it over and over again, even I almost put my husband on puke! -nho