Friday, 28 December 2012

Welcoming The Year-End ... Again!



Alhamdulillah.
First draft of the proposal has been submitted for my supervisor kind review, which means now I have plenty of time to spend with my loved ones and off course its a payback time for some updates on my blog after it has been abandoned for so many weeks before the draft have to be edited for defense session.

Alhamdulillah too, that this year-end bring us some rezeki. And off course with the extra rezeki we manage to get ourselves new laptops to enhance our work quality. The husband just bought himself a new Apple Macbook while I just replace my 4 years old Compaq with new Acer which comes with newly installed Windows 8 (which currently I'm adapting myself into and get all the functions familiarized) and further to that, I am just more than happy that all of our plan for 2012 are progressing really well.

Moving to motherhood, I must now admit that the day during completing my Degree and battling with one child is way much different than handling 2 kids as it is now. Even the difference is only by one child but the rotation of routine get 100 times crazier now when I am in the progress of completing the Master  and handling 2 crazily active children at home. I am not shame to admit that sometimes there has been an emotionally ups and down when it comes to managing home and these 2 kids for it is not an easy task even that I’m staying at home. It is the most tiring yet fulfilling job a mom had to face. Sometimes I just wish that these kids will grow up faster so that I don’t have to face the same routine with the same tantrum every day. But in the end, it just touch me to the bottom of my heart when every night,  right before I put these kids off to bed, kakak will offer me a good massage on my foot while little Saif offers me a good warm hug as a sign of thanking me and appreciation of what I did for him during day. How blessed I am to have them in my life. I am lucky to receive so much love from these kids am I? (Not to mention being pampered too much by my husband)

Looking forward to 2013, there is not much expectation to put on as I think this coming year is all about the continuation of what has been done in 2012. One thing for sure, I will,  Inshaa Allah, to put a full blast for 2013 so that it would be much better year than 2012.

To be able to love more, to give more, to live more and off course to forgive and redha for any circumstances.

I LOVE MY LIFE AND I LOVE BEING ME- nho
He just can't get his hands off from this Macbook. Working all the way.
Getting myself familiarized
The best pose he could give while eating ice-cream @Colmar de Tropicale. Sangat mengada!

My much love angels at their most adored lepak spot; Kedai Upin Ipin in Bangi.

The Lost Soul



She was here
She was lend temporarily by The Lord to support me to stand
We spend some valuable time as mother and daughter
Even at some points we quarreled
But it always back to her where I find the calm when others try to bother.


She was one tough figure
For it was never easy to become a single mother raised up a daughter
When the world keep oppressing in every possible angle, she turned to me as motivation for her to go further, for her to aim higher
She had me and it’s suffice
For I am her little angel even all I saw was only her sour face
Over her tiring work schedule
For having to support me all alone
Without any additional hands to hold and hear her exhausting soul.


I know I owe her so much
For making me who I am today
I love her and it’s beyond measure
For she is the real mother, the real love
The one who struggle so much in her life
Only to prove to others that she was a one sturdy build
Who needs no one for her to lean against, even at the sappy cloudy day
Or even when her step has gone astray.


I miss her dearly
It has been 3 years since we met
It has been 3 years since I kissed her forehead
It has been 3 years since I hugged her tight
Before she was taken eternally to meet the One who Create.


You are the purest love of all
You are the angel of my own version
You’ll be loved and missed dearly above all.


The five years old girl inside me always longed for her and hold on to our great day at White Castle and McDonald eating burgers together every time at the day when she received her monthly pay cheque. Even the world couldn’t pay what she had sacrificed for me. May He place her in His mighty protection and blessings.  Al-Fatihah and may The Almighty tells her how much I miss her dearly-nho

Tuesday, 11 December 2012

I Loathe You

I miss you

Well I know you knew
Even when we never met since then
Yet the feeling is so true

Missing you is bitter
Missing you is sweet
Missing you is mixed feeling
Missing you is fluctuating

We just know that we don’t need each other; anymore
We moved on to a different space
Meeting new people
Meeting new life
When you finally met the one who you can call as ‘wife’
Yet the memory is here to follow
Never fail to chase us in a sorrow

Missing you never mean that I want you
Missing you never mean that I need you
Missing you never mean that I still long for you
It is just the memory that bring us back to the life where we want to forget
Delete and finally move on on a different pace
But sometimes it just worth remembering for
So that I know what type of person that I used to ignore

I miss us but I loathe you. -nho