Shutting The Door Behind Us Under Whatever Circumstances

I just love writing. Period. I never had a formal lesson or attending classes on literature, study on Shakespeare’s most renowned poetry, flowery writing or the proper English lesson (although I must thank me aunty for bought me Charles Dickons's book and me late mom who loves to buy me some fictions and adventurous books written by Enid Blyton when I was a kid. But the turning point would be when I lwas living in England almost 13 years ago, for desperately having to speak and communicate in English in order to survive and live.)

Back to the English lesson thingy, the only English course I took were mainly on business communication, management English, proposal writing in order to produce write ups such assignments,  case studies,  business proposals and researches while completing my Degree in Management and Media Innovation sometimes ago in MMU. Some might condemn my structure of writing as it contain full of grammatical errors. Please get over it. I can’t help as sometimes, my mind is full with words and ideas therefore it needs to be poured somewhere. However, thank you for still hold on to it and still spend sometimes to read the crap written in my blog.

You made my day and every single click in here is very much appreciated and cherished.

Have you ever loathe someone for what they did sometimes ago in your life and can't help but to check on what they been up to? Well, it kind of bitter to know that they moved on while you are still trap in the time machine of thinking what they did to you? And you fell into the darkest valley for having to pick up the pieces of the shattering glass which were broken by some people shallow decisions? Well for me it is really a loud wake up call for knowing that the one who messing you up has finally moved on as though nothing had happen, even worst, without a single guilt towards the destruction.  And even so, at times, we can’t help but to laugh at ourselves for being so overwhelm with the demolition. Even worst, to still cling on it and still waiting for time to hit them back with a nasty punch.

Here are some good tips.

1. Ignorance is The Best Policy; At Times.

Don’t be so gatal to tear your wound up. Even the one who did it is your best friend; keep in mind that nothing last forever in this world. Even your shadow will leave you when you are in darkness. So get over it. Try as much as possible to ignore the pain by keeping yourself busy with the new hobby. Try to find one. Do anything to keep yourself in hectic as long as all is ignored. The biggest no-no is to try to make contact with the destroyer seeking for explanations. They might lie only to escape from the mistakes and situation. Ignore them. With your tangled mind, you’ll end up losing the battle and leave the wound even worse.

2. Pray a Lot.

This is just a phase in life order for you to become stronger and wiser. Keep yourself wrap in a time machine and grief for sometimes is fine but too much and too long of sorrow will leave ‘weak’ marks on your forehead. Remember, it is good to ‘muhasabah’ yourself on your deficiency and shortcomings which might lead to the events, but rise from it. Pray for Allah to grand you with lots of strength to be able to get up so that you will pass the phase.

Don't fight the pain for you will end up exhausted. Feel the pain until it hurts no more- Shakespeare.  

3. Forgive and Take The Ample Time To Forget.

To forgive is easy than to forget. Don’t force it. Forgive what they did to you. Bear in mind that you are not an angel and sometimes without you knowing it, you might hurt people too. So it’s fair and square to just forgive. You are considered noble to forgive even with out them asking for forgiveness. Then, it is well understood that there is no easy way to forget. Let it be. Time will heal your pain. So just go with the flow and ‘redha’. The chapter somehow will be flipped and the door will be shut somehow.

( I feel like some disqualified motivator now.I guess it's an indication that I should stop before it's getting tooo long and tooo 'merepek') LOL!

There you go; a lengthy entry.
As this post is written, I am actually sitting in my cubicle feeling bored of getting to clear up my filing and documents before I wave for farewell to this office. I am pursuing my full time Master of Economics program soon in September and I am in no intention to become a superwoman by juggling the career, family and life as a student. So I am letting go of my career with the motivation that after the completion of my Master, lots of good opportunity will come to my doorway. Right now I am in a full force of keeping all in order before the new bees coming in to replace my vacancy.

Regardless all, I can’t help but being incredibly happy and relief to finally shut this 11^th floor office door behind me. muahahaha! -nho